Freedom in Truth

When we choose to allow the inherent goodness, that silver lining in every situation, to mold and shape us then our old fearful selves will die in a blazing fire, melting away many aspects of our ego. We are reborn, like a phoenix rising. We become clear channels, through which the divine messages of Spirit can pass through our unique expression.

While we weigh our decisions, this in-between state can be clouded with doubt, uncertainty, and anxiety or it can be filled with the calm stillness of a tranquil state of trust. There are no boundaries within this peace of mind, no beginnings, no ending, just a faith in the continuous cycle of birth, death, and rebirth. When the option to write a book on magic and teens arose I knew that I was being offered the chance to heal years of pain. Like any coming of age mine was quite transformational and painful. The course of events leading to, throughout, and immediately after the writing process gave me the impetus to release old programming that had served my younger self but had developed into a crippling perspective of distrust and fear as I grew older.

My path to freedom began with uncovering and releasing the pebble the mountain was built upon. Or, more to the point, there existed a mountain range. I am a sensitive one, direct, and forthright. When I was hurt I deduced that somewhere there was intent. This thought led me to believe there was a separation from others and me. Even though I was taught to believe we were all connected and originate from the same source as equal parts, the division I felt made me seek out others' approval.

In time I began to value others' opinion of me more important than my own. For many years I didn't feel the support of others because I didn't allow the true me to really live. I squashed my enthusiasm and shadowed the magnitude of my spirit so others wouldn't feel the shame in not reaching for their own potential and so I would be sheltered from their envy. As I wrote about the passion and angst of the teen years I began to feel the quiver of wings. I dared hope for greatness of childhood dreams. I looked at the world with eyes that hadn't seen pain. I yearned and anticipated a positive outcome. No matter which road I chose, each would have highs and lows. Why not go for glory? Why not choose to experience great joy?

By forgiving the past, or in other words giving up the wish it had been different, I have been able to release much of the pain. It is funny too, because I have always been a nail biter. And while I have referenced Louise Hay's book, You Can Heal Your Life, so many times that I broke the first copy of the book in half, I never looked up this problem until now. It says the probable cause is eating away at self, while the affirmation states
It is safe for me to grow up. I now handle my own life with joy and ease.

For the first time in my life my nails look pretty, very adult, not at all like a grubby kid, stuck in her pain. Find the error in your perception and pluck it out. It is as if a bit of information was placed into the computer of your brain and all the subsequent information has been wrongly deduced, and the time has come to admit it -- even to yourself. Once you discover the mustard seed of truth you will see the breakdown of relationships that were built upon your fears. You will know that in truth Spirit is constantly guiding and guarding every one of its children with love and light.

Experience the joy. Embrace the intensity of living. Attune yourself to every feeling, awakening every one of your senses. Allow your ego to rebuild and express itself. By celebrating your unique expression and essence you honor the divinity within you and those around you. This is the utmost gift from the Divine Source. Of all the things that can happen to you, the greatest is the gift of knowing and loving yourself.

Brightest blessings!
Jamie