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Serendipitous Success
I used to think that the more vigilant and
hard on yourself -- the more spiritual you
were. If I grew my own herbs, made my own
incense, participated in every sabbat, I
would be a good little witch. I used to
think that burning the candle at both ends
was admirable. This all work and no play
offers some rewards, but little time to
enjoy them - there is always another mountain
to climb. I used to think that struggle
was how you proved your worth (no doubt
influenced by a Judea Christian society).
So I loaded up on hard tasks, making up
victim roles if I had to. Expectations of
myself were always just beyond my reach.
There was no time or glory in being human.
I had not learned about the spirit infused
in the mundane. Failure was not an option.
I put myself through college and worked
full time. No loans, thank you - somehow
that would dilute my success. I was determined
to earn loads of money in the professional
world. I began with Technical PR. Clearly
it was not my thing - as two bosses informed
me, so I moved onto the arts. I had a great
job until my husband and I moved. In the
new city, I searched for a job for several
months with no luck. Finally I gave up the
ghost and went to school for the healing
arts. It was very difficult to break away
from what I thought my dream was.
You see, I used to think that if you wanted
to do something then surely Spirit would
give you the tools and skills necessary
for the task. Not always so. Our wants and
needs may differ, as I was soon to learn.
I then looked for part time work and found
an ad for a literary agent assistant. I
began work immediately for her. My salary
went from $40,000 a year to $7 an hour.
It was a bit hard on my ego. However, three
years later, an editor called with a book
idea. I wrote a proposal for it and it was
published. That was the Wicca Cookbook.
Later I was blessed with the ability to
write three more books. I would not have
enjoyed this serendipitous success had I
not been willing to release the picture
of success I thought I wanted. My need was
to be an artist. And that wish was granted.
There is nothing you or I need to do to
be loved by Spirit. No mountain that need
climbing to prove you are admirable, cherished,
and needed. There are no hoops you need
to jump through to be a good person or little
witch or Wiccan. Begin with loving yourself.
Do not whip yourself into shape.
Be gentle on YOU and that will be one of
the most spiritual acts you will take today.
Love and Blessings,
Jamie
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